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You ever have a morning where you feel like moving mountains...or in my case a heavy desk.. the idea came to mind because it is indeed summer and it has been hot..I wanted to use the north window I had boarded up for the sake of winter. So all we going fine until the tv I had stored under the desk fell over on my toe. So of course it hurt. For about eeh.. half an hour before the pain meds and ice pack kicked in... now it is a horrible color of dark red and purple. It hurts to wear shoes.. so I am limited on where I can go. Sigh.. It was worth all the work for the open window though now it is rainy and chilly again.
Thats Ohio weather for you though. So I have had time to render more than normal. I am hoping I heal before I have to help my boyfriend at his new place.. As decorating is something I love to do. And well he is hopeless. And yea don't get me started on thinking about how him and I won't ever have our own place.. I mean I have a house.. it's just too much house for me and my aging falling apart body..
Even if the bed bugs wasn't be an issue I think I still would have been camping down stairs as the upstairs is so far away and it's so oppressing. Not something I need. And being up there alone..with my thoughts isn't a good idea as my dark thought form.
So I stay down stairs regardless.
On top of all this going on with my house the town decided to be a dick too..making me go to court because I didn't clean up my yard by their deadlines. Sorry I can't just toss my furniture into the sun.. Where is superman when you need him..
So I have to appear in court about it. Maybe its a good thing IDK though..
A chance to vent how much ass they can kiss about their sucky idea of litter. Yeah I might go to jail..so may be missing for a couple nights.. Whatever. I know I normally don't mention my personal drama and stuff but I figured since I may be missing for awhile it was a good reason too.
Between my b/fs move the court thing and upcoming festivals.. which I don't post on my DA because I don't want to scramble up my page. This is also why I don't post my anime stuff..
Also I'm waiting till 50k to cut of dye my hair....so it may be really long by then. LOL I'm going blonde and then Jade.
Okay thats about everything currently I'm still really tired..
Thats Ohio weather for you though. So I have had time to render more than normal. I am hoping I heal before I have to help my boyfriend at his new place.. As decorating is something I love to do. And well he is hopeless. And yea don't get me started on thinking about how him and I won't ever have our own place.. I mean I have a house.. it's just too much house for me and my aging falling apart body..
Even if the bed bugs wasn't be an issue I think I still would have been camping down stairs as the upstairs is so far away and it's so oppressing. Not something I need. And being up there alone..with my thoughts isn't a good idea as my dark thought form.
So I stay down stairs regardless.
On top of all this going on with my house the town decided to be a dick too..making me go to court because I didn't clean up my yard by their deadlines. Sorry I can't just toss my furniture into the sun.. Where is superman when you need him..
So I have to appear in court about it. Maybe its a good thing IDK though..
A chance to vent how much ass they can kiss about their sucky idea of litter. Yeah I might go to jail..so may be missing for a couple nights.. Whatever. I know I normally don't mention my personal drama and stuff but I figured since I may be missing for awhile it was a good reason too.
Between my b/fs move the court thing and upcoming festivals.. which I don't post on my DA because I don't want to scramble up my page. This is also why I don't post my anime stuff..
Also I'm waiting till 50k to cut of dye my hair....so it may be really long by then. LOL I'm going blonde and then Jade.
Okay thats about everything currently I'm still really tired..
It's been a lot...
Time is so annoying, it goes fast when you don't want it to. And well when I want to try to hold on to it well it just slips through your fingers. I have been bad about keeping up with things. (it doesn't help when the app doesn't tell me I got comments) Last year was rough and this one has been busy already. Work and travel has been dragging me around. I am glad that my work is still being enjoyed, honestly I am glad to see the old renders getting love. Maybe I should rebuild the set up once I get my studio expanded. But that requires work and I have a list of to do already. Anyway, I just wanted to say thanks.
Where the H have I been...
First off, Yikes, the site changes have sneaked up on me and I honestly don't get notifications as much as I'd like so I want to say thank you for all the support, summer is a busy time of the year for me and I take whatever time I get to just chill out or sleep. If I am to be honest. I do create artwork often and maybe I will share some of them here. It's just exclusive stuff and I have to made a release window for posting it. As for life, I made myself a cozy yet cluttered studio which thankfully was my hide away during the chaos that was lockdown and frankly still is because I get sick very easy with everything as soon as it comes out like catching a trend only this wasn't as fun of one. I am a home body though so being at home didn't bother me until summer, when normally I'd go to festivals or just get it out. You know, do the social stuff. Which I do miss, and look forward to do again this August and into the fall. It wasn't weird for me to wear the mask, as I normally wear a
April....and keeping my head attached...
Times like this I am sure we are all starting to feel a whole lot like Alice right now, we have fallen down the rabbit hole and we have either embraced madness or we are running away from the mad red queen wielding an ax. With the Cheshires words hunting us as they become a reality. We are becoming mad here. At times like this, I am grateful I was already in this world before it became a thing. A thing forced onto us by circumstances that were in the cards anyway. And as the pipe-smoking caterpillar would say, it is your destiny and fate will do what it will and something like that. Thankfully I don't have insects talking to me...or my cats. Well, aside from the meowing of hey I am hungry or drama is gonna happen so get ready. April was never an easy month for myself personally, I would escape through the rabbit hole to avoid the reminder of grief. I'm doing okay... as okay as I would ever truly allow myself anyway. I am keeping busy with odd things... and hanging out with
In these times
As I sit at home watching the world turn around me. The weather changes from warm to cold to rain and then snow. The sun peeks out and birds promise me a song that reminds me that life still functions around the chaos and fear. I have been in my studio and even though I am here I really haven't done much. But I felt I should make something. The normal escape didn't seem enough. So I decided to make the one thing that makes me happy and well hopefully others. I am thankful for all the support and I hope that I can provide you some solace in some way. That has been my goal since I started. I had to find my own solace and I am working on it still. If you can sink into a world I make and be better then that is all I ever want. Just like I find escape in worlds you create. Sometimes it's even the world around me. Be patient and be kind and be careful.
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Man that sucks. Never really had that before but I hope you get better soon. 