Soon it will be snowing..and it will be December.
Then there will be a new year.
To flood over the memories.
Of this year.
And I will spend it trying to forget.
The taste of happiness.
It's metallic flavor.
Thick like the emptiness that consumes me.
Cold like the tears.
I've shed over and over.
Trying to lie to myself about this mess.
I wish I could have prevented it.
But like usual I failed.

This track we were on, derailed.
Leaving us both mangled.

My words.
They have fallen empty.
My regret.
Ties us both down here.

It's the last thing I ever wanted.
I didn't mind feeling distant.
I didn't mind feeling cold.
But now that I've tasted this metallic happiness.

It leaves me aching..in this emptiness.
Full of regret.

I know you couldn't ever understand.
Because you have tried so hard to keep me far away.
From all of this.

But like a storm.
It comes with its destruction.
Tearing me from my bones.
My foundation still standing.
Leaving me a mangled mess.

So many times I've rebuilt.

So many times.